.Thursday, February 23, 2006
gist of jc2 life
things have been really stressful for me.
yes the little bouncy girl in j1 has to tone down for the welcoming of jc2 life.
i've gotten a wake up call when the common test timetable was distributed.
haha. thank goodness we have the one week march holidays to prepare.
but mathematics. haii.. we don't have that luxury of time to practice.
so i'm trying to study at the same time juggle with my taxing choir practices with the nus chinese orchestra.
the concert will be this sunday, and it'll be mugging for me after that.
to relieve me of stress (and you know how i am when i'm stressed), i take full opportunity to enjoy pe lessons in school.
from the canal run, to the circuits, to the 2.4km run round the track, to the i-pulls, and the crunches.
haha. think positive sarah!! (:
my 2.4km timing went down from a miserable 16:12 to a 14:40 (:
it's still rather slow but for a choir girl, i think it's not bad!!
i take crunches an opportunity to remove my big lipids on my tummy.
and i-pulls to remove the flabby arms that i may have.
haha. then it's not all about the weight you know? i did put on weight after the yummylicious food in italy.
it's also about not having a tummy for me to reach my dream 33-26-34 figure.
YES DREAM ON. at the rate i gobble down my chocolates, eat the curry, the sugees, the keropoks, and all the carbo since i adore carbo, i don't think i'll ever hit that.
so it's running and adrenaline rush for me on saturday mornings (if i can drag myself out of the bed) hopefully, it'll do good to my studies and monthly cramps.
next, the teachers aren't particularly nice.
they scream and shout. take out their pms on me. cos possibly i don't do as well as my classmates do for the test.
i'm working on it alright? i still got latifah to study with me.
since she's not having an easy time as well.
that's about the gist of my jc2 life so far.
due to the packed schedules, i hardly have time to log on, what more blog right?
haha. so i think it might go on haitus for a while.
for the sake of my common test and my future.
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.Saturday, February 18, 2006
the happy pain
the pain piled up from months ago,
the fragile hearts that once were whole.
the question asked of love and then
i knew i had to hold your hand.
the empty void inside my heart,
was caused by words like a sharp, sharp dart.
i never knew that i was poor,
poor of virtues, character and now i fear.
that just one day i'll stand alone,
for there is no way i can atone
the person i am and how i look
was never meant to be black soot.
unpure, unlovable is what i am.
all i want is to be good, acceptable to them.
for i know deep down i'm not like the rest,
i always try to give off my best.
maybe for you, i'm not good enough,
or maybe i'm not the one that's just so tough.
tough enough to stand up tall,
when one by one you took them all.
i'm hurt, i'm crushed.
all the deceit and all the lies,
i hope one day, i would die.
to leave this world and say goodbye.
saying i'm never going to be good enough for anyone.
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.Thursday, February 09, 2006
the simple life.
the complexity of the human language?
instead of using normal primary school words like very, really to express oneself, people these days, tend to use words like damn and f***. though i admit that i do use words like damn but i seldom use the other.
the youngsters of today's society indeed get influenced by the media.
a word like f***, that is used as a curse words today, or even a normal day to day word,
was once from shakespear's time. a innocent. decent word.
why am i typing this? not pin-pointing anyone of my friends.
but people who rudely. yes rudely. flood people's tagboards.
not only flooding, but with the extensive use of vulgarities.
why is the people of today so unbecoming?
to a certain extent maybe childish and immatured.
i remember the last time flooding someone's tagboard with angsty stuff was in secondary school.
and maybe the last i flooded a friend's blog with cheery things. this year.
this is junior college life. a pre-university. high time we learn to grow up.
and not only do they, those unbecoming ones, type rubbish online,
they fear to leave their own names. basically, their identity.
possible reason that they're ashamed of it?
i wouldn't know. nobody knows. probably the only ones that know are themselves.
to them, they're great mighty selves, thinking that they are powerful enough to judge others.
you may ask about freedom of speech.
sure. i don't mind you posting your honest opinions.
just let me have a matured talk with you.
at least leave your identity that is so untainted. so pure.
that you have every right to judge others.
besides, what i do with my life, what my friends do, is none of your business.
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